My covid experience

 Hey reader, this is my first blog.Here I am sharing my covid experience with u all.

I am writing this blog because today one of my relative is tested covid positive. So all the things which I had gone through during those days began to revolve around my mind and therefore I decided to spill it out in order to feel better.I don't know why I am writing this all here. Anyways lets get started. 

It was the month of July. Everything was normal. On the morning of 12 July 2020 i did not know why but i was not feeling good.So i went into my elder sister's room and we both were talking. Suddenly her phone began to ring. She picked the call. It was a call from my brother. He told her that listen Shubhi is tested positive. So tell everyone in the house to isolate her. 

Then she went outside the room and then I came to know that my reports are positive. I am COVID positive. At that moment I was totally blank. I was not in the state to understand anything. The only thing which was revolving in my mind at that time was that I don't want to die now. Tears were rolling down my cheeks but there was no one to wipe them. 

Then I heard my father who was talking to someone on phone and was requesting them to let me home quarantine but atlast I had to go to the quarantine centre. I was crying. At that moment the only thing which I wanted was a warm hug from my mother but it was not possible. I wanted to hug my younger sister who was just standing in the corner with tears in her eyes and was constantly staring me. But it was not possible. At that moment I wanted a support. So i decided to text my friends that I am tested positive. Next moment I received a video call from them but we all ended up crying. 

JOURNEY TO THE COVID CENTRE

Ambulance was on the gate.Announcements were being made that a girl is tested positive in this area so everyone must remain inside their houses.Whole house was being sanitized. I was watching this all. My heart was beating very fast. Then a random thought came in my mind that I should escape. But later I realised this is not the solution to my problem. I will have to face the reality.My mother was packing my bag as I can't touch anything now. I told her to put my secret diary with all the stuffs she is packing. Finally it was time to leave my home, sweet home. 

I tried my best to hide my tears because I cannot see my family crying but I failed to do so. I was just walking towards the ambulance. The moment I skipped inside, the gate was closed. I couldn't even see my parents for one last time. 

AMBULANCE, ME AND THOSE RANDOM THOUGHTS

I was accompanied with one more covid patient in the ambulance. Actually he is my family friend too but I didn't know that. So i was crying and then uncle said beta, u cannot change the situation. So try to accept it and we will be back soon. Just have some faith in God.

So i tried to muster up all the courage which I had. My phone rang it was a call from my friend. So i decided to pick up the call. She said kabootar(as she used to call me by this name) u will be fine. Come back soon.We all are waiting. Without uttering even a single word I cut the call. After 10-15 minutes we reached the covid center. 

As soon as we stepped out of the ambulance everyone began to stare us. A girl was there who clicked my pic and was laughing by saying these careless people deserve this. Let me share this to my friends. At that moment I was shattered. I just wanted to slap her. Actually this is human nature we are too quick to judge someone. And the irony was she herself was not wearing her mask properly. 

VIEW INSIDE THE COVID CENTER

I went inside. It was 1 PM. The sun was shining bright. In my room there were 4 more patients. Again they all were staring me like I was a ghost. So I ignored them and went inside. The weather was hot and fans were not working. Then I came to know that they don't provide good electricity here. It was around 2 PM. I was hungry but when I got lunch all my hungriness disappeared. It was the worst meal I had ever tasted till today.I was totally irritated. I called my father and told him that in this atmosphere I am not gonna recover. 

I was lucky enough because in next few hours I was provided a separate room. But later I thought what about those families who cannot afford to pay such a huge amount. 

QUARANTINE-THE WORST DAYS OF MY LIFE

It was 9 PM. Silence was prevailing everywhere. I remember it was raining that day and I didn't even know that because there was a wall in front of the window of my room. Later while talking to mom I came to know that it was raining.I am a star gazer kinda girl so it was difficult for me to stay inside the room in night. I didn't sleep that night. Finally it was around 1 AM in night and somehow I managed to see the stars.I checked my whatsapp and it was filled with msgs and statuses.Some people were also there who were more interested in the story like how I get this and all drama.I remember one of my classmate forwarded me a msg on corona and after reading that I was again in tears.My all strength gone in seconds after reading that msg. I came back into my room. I called one of my friend. I blocked my classmate and Day 1 was over.

But day 2 was more difficult i was having high fever, headache, body ache and my senses of taste and smell were gone completely. I still remember that day I messaged my friend that I don't know whether I am gonna stay alive or not...

Day 3 come with a surprise. My friends tried their best to make me feel good and special. That day my will power increased and I told myself that I have to stay strong. So days were passing. Sometimes I felt completely lonely. I used to stare the walls of my room.I used to feel breathlessness,body ache,headache,high fever.When I talk for like more than 2 minutes my throat began to pain.So I didn't want to receive call. I switched off my phone. But later I realised I was only troubling everyone by doing so.Then I began to stay online 24X7 in order to pretend i am fine.Whenever someone called or text me I used to say I am doing well and I was watching this Netflix series or scrolling memes.Basically I was telling lies to everyone.I used to stay awake whole night but I never dared to saw whatsapp messages of my mother because if I did so then she will not sleep too.But one of my friend,Yashi she was the one who was my biggest supporter during those days.Today i am recovered and she is the biggest reason behind this.So this was all which was happening with me.

But some good things happened too. I came to know that how lucky I am to have such an amazing parents, few of my friends and some other family members. I even get my few friends back with whom I literally wanted to talk but I never messaged them bcz of everything which happened. I realised how lucky I am to get these three girls in my life-One was always there for me no matter what.One who never belived in God was praying while the other was praying to Allah for my health.I cannot explain how much they mean to me.Most importantly I came to know the importance of my life. 

THINGS I LEARNT FROM CORONAVIRUS

Life is beautiful.We should not take it for granted.It is unpredictable. Whenever u will think it can't be more worse it will.So without wasting time just tell your loved ones how much u love them because now I know how bad it feels when ur mother is standing in front of u and u cannot hug her and tell her how much she meant to u. Live ur life now. Do everything which satisfies ur soul. Let them call u mad but just live ur life the way u want. Dare to paint ur life, ur way. Do everything but yess stay safe. 

    Stay home, stay safe!! 

U get life only once, so don't risk it.Live ur life to the fullest but safety is important too. 

Though I am tested negative now but coronavirus is a serious thing.It affects a person both physically as well as mentally. Some recovered patients are still in depression.It is a life threatening disease.People are not taking it seriously but let me tell you if u wanted to know how depressing this covid 19 is just talk to any covid patient. I bet you will urself began to realise the importance of ur life. 

Thank you for reading. Stay safe everyone!